i realized i havent talked about the olympics..how dare i not blog about them?
THEY HAVE MY FAVORITE THING EVER TO WATCH. ALL THE GAMES. ok not all. a lot are just GAY.
my favorites include track and field, fencing, swimming, archery, equestrian, gymnastics, and the triathlon
ive been glued to the tv today because fencing, swimming and archery are on
:sigh: i really wish i was there. i mean i know i sound like such a cheeseball BUT I REALLY WISH I COULD'VE PARTICIPATED IN AN OLYMPIC event. since it's too late for menow, im just gonna live through my kids and hopefully make them obsessed about and GOOD at a sport so they can participate in the olympics in the future.
i'm so serious.
see that's another plan i have for my kids. i totally think im gonna own and rule their lives. NOT GOOD. there's gonna be a father in their life and lots of other variables..oh and wait like, theirown free will HELLO
so anyways. at least i feel cool about something. one of the track and field participants is an american somalian muslim guy named Abdi Abdurrahman. he's from arizona. anyway HE WAS ACTUALLY RUNNING IN ONE OF THE SAME EVENTS AS MYSELF LIKE 4 MONTHS AGO. obviously i didnt see him. there were 30,000 people at that event. but i still feel cool. LIKE HEY I RAN THE SAME EVENT AS AN OLYMPIAN!!!
he was so fast..he got first place out of 30,000 people. i remember people were talking about how the people who are supposed to cheer you on at the finish line hadnt even set up their chairs and posters, thinking it was too early because it'd be a while before people came running through but sure enough there was this guy and everyone was like wow
so i read up on his training regime on here http://www.nbcolympics.com/athletes/athlete=67613/bio/index.html ...and the dude runs like 140 to 150 miles a week. ok, that's like INSANE. like 20-25 miles a freaking day. i want to show off if i get in 30 miles per week.
sigh.
i have an inferiority complex as a result of watching the olympics. womens swimming and fencing was sooooooo cooool..all these super strong, fast women...my age too. :sigh:
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
cha ching
I’ve had a few epiphanies lately. Mainly due to growing up and having experienced ‘new’ I guess, circumstances, people…having to give issues like MARRIAGE a second, third, fourth, fifth thought…
A huge part of me really feels like I’ve gotten less flexible and likely to accommodating as I’ve gotten older. I suppose that’s only natural. The more time you spend thinking of only yourself and your plans and desires, the more you’re prone to getting stuck in your ways. In some ways, it’s good. You decide hey, this is who I am. Your personality starts to firm and you become in ways, an individual. In other ways, it’s not that great. You’re likely to become more stubborn. Again, this doesn’t apply to every single person out there. But it does to me because I know the kind of person I am.
If I compare myself to the ME from 5 years ago, I’m overall really pleased. But I don’t know if I want to keep this progress I’ve made up. I don’t really know that the direction I’m headed in is worthwhile going into on my own. For example, in the past I’ve been more overall clingy person, and I mean to experiences, places, people…everything. Now, I’m ridiculously independent. I value time to myself like no other. I’d rather be on my own, and if I am to seek out company I’d rather pick quality over quantity. I absolutely cannot stand hanging out with random acquaintances JUST for the sake of hanging out. In the past I would’ve been completely ok with something of that sort.
I’m less reliant on people. And I’m more blunt about how I feel or who I am. Sometimes, I feel like I think like a guy. Sort of chauvinistic. My way or the highway. So I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t know if I want to continue down this path anymore. Eventually I just can’t think of myself all the time. Even though it’s not like I would never make sacrifices for someone I care about because I know when I truly care about someone, I can be beyond loyal.
Maybe it’s just part of growing older. I have to find my own balance at some point. I don’t need to be involved in a relationship heading down the marriage avenue unless I’m ready to or find that balance myself. I don’t in the least see myself ending up in a parent-child or professor-student type marital relationship. Unfortunately, if I don’t fix the stubbornness or stay aware of it, I might push my future relationship into that direction.
So hello. I’m trying to figure out. I’m not DOMINANT. But I’m not submissive. Sooo what do I classify as?? Ahh. I guess. I go for whatever feels convenient? Or whatever pleases me for the moment. And in that way, I’m actually dominant
I also realize, the times when I do think of getting married seriously, I have a lot of things planned out in my head and I expect them go the way I do. Like literally I’ve told maybe 3 people how I want 2-3 kids. All before 30. at ages 23, 25, 27 (or 25, 27, 29). And how I want to adopt one kid in the middle somewhere and how I want to raise them to be healthy eaters and like HELLO do I live in some fantasy world or something cuz I REALLY THINK everything SHOULD go my way. And I haven’t even consulted THE OTHER PERSON who’s supposed to be part of the married relationship about anything.
I actually have no idea what the hell I’m talking about anymore.
In other news, I got a haircut. I wasn’t feeling it that much at first, mainly cuz I like the kind of haircuts that you don’t absolutely need to spend 5 years styling each time to SEE what it looks like. The kind of haircuts that just naturally fall into their place are way better. Anyway, I was annoyed with it but I think it’s growing on me.
Also let it be known, I’m a damn good cook and I just get better everytime. GO ME!
A huge part of me really feels like I’ve gotten less flexible and likely to accommodating as I’ve gotten older. I suppose that’s only natural. The more time you spend thinking of only yourself and your plans and desires, the more you’re prone to getting stuck in your ways. In some ways, it’s good. You decide hey, this is who I am. Your personality starts to firm and you become in ways, an individual. In other ways, it’s not that great. You’re likely to become more stubborn. Again, this doesn’t apply to every single person out there. But it does to me because I know the kind of person I am.
If I compare myself to the ME from 5 years ago, I’m overall really pleased. But I don’t know if I want to keep this progress I’ve made up. I don’t really know that the direction I’m headed in is worthwhile going into on my own. For example, in the past I’ve been more overall clingy person, and I mean to experiences, places, people…everything. Now, I’m ridiculously independent. I value time to myself like no other. I’d rather be on my own, and if I am to seek out company I’d rather pick quality over quantity. I absolutely cannot stand hanging out with random acquaintances JUST for the sake of hanging out. In the past I would’ve been completely ok with something of that sort.
I’m less reliant on people. And I’m more blunt about how I feel or who I am. Sometimes, I feel like I think like a guy. Sort of chauvinistic. My way or the highway. So I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t know if I want to continue down this path anymore. Eventually I just can’t think of myself all the time. Even though it’s not like I would never make sacrifices for someone I care about because I know when I truly care about someone, I can be beyond loyal.
Maybe it’s just part of growing older. I have to find my own balance at some point. I don’t need to be involved in a relationship heading down the marriage avenue unless I’m ready to or find that balance myself. I don’t in the least see myself ending up in a parent-child or professor-student type marital relationship. Unfortunately, if I don’t fix the stubbornness or stay aware of it, I might push my future relationship into that direction.
So hello. I’m trying to figure out. I’m not DOMINANT. But I’m not submissive. Sooo what do I classify as?? Ahh. I guess. I go for whatever feels convenient? Or whatever pleases me for the moment. And in that way, I’m actually dominant
I also realize, the times when I do think of getting married seriously, I have a lot of things planned out in my head and I expect them go the way I do. Like literally I’ve told maybe 3 people how I want 2-3 kids. All before 30. at ages 23, 25, 27 (or 25, 27, 29). And how I want to adopt one kid in the middle somewhere and how I want to raise them to be healthy eaters and like HELLO do I live in some fantasy world or something cuz I REALLY THINK everything SHOULD go my way. And I haven’t even consulted THE OTHER PERSON who’s supposed to be part of the married relationship about anything.
I actually have no idea what the hell I’m talking about anymore.
In other news, I got a haircut. I wasn’t feeling it that much at first, mainly cuz I like the kind of haircuts that you don’t absolutely need to spend 5 years styling each time to SEE what it looks like. The kind of haircuts that just naturally fall into their place are way better. Anyway, I was annoyed with it but I think it’s growing on me.
Also let it be known, I’m a damn good cook and I just get better everytime. GO ME!
pics of my room
ok finally...for everyone whos been bugging me to post the room pics already
here you goooo
still in the works, need to add/subtract loads
ill post more pics as i change things around here
here you goooo
still in the works, need to add/subtract loads
ill post more pics as i change things around here
change fo' yo dolla
Life’s a chaaangin’
For one thing, 165 days till Baby Niecphew makes his/her way into this world, insha’Allah. And no, we still haven’t found out the gender. I just can’t wait. I want to be able to buy blue or pink things already, helloooo. Yellow is not my absolute favorite. Yellow is like the sell out baby color. Like, you just don’t care or something. Like, hi, I dress my newborn in yellow cuz we never cared to find out the gender during the pregnancy. Ok, I’m such a hater. I think a lot of my friends reading this didn’t wanna find out the gender. SORRY GUYS I HEART YOU ALL!
Soooo yeah. We need to have a baby shower. For friends. Seeing as the baby will probably have a shower in Chicago with majority family from his/her dads side. All the cool people live in Atlanta. Or at least, we’re all Atlanta based. Everyones moved away. Makes things so much much much more harder to plan. Aaaah.
Amenah got engaged so she’s technically become one of us now. Or will be soon. ATLANTA BASED crew. She’s moving alllllllll the way to the bay area..yes as in california. That’s kind of far, like 4 hours behind. Saddening. But it’s okay because…well, I don’t knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww HOW ABOUT SHE FOUND THIS COOL GUY WHO’S JUST LIKE HER MASHA’ALLAH. Like who would’ve thought. It’s amazing. I’m really happy for her. I sound like a cheeseball I think. Whatever. I talked to him and this is the first thing I said, “hi, if you hurt my friend, we will all kick you” and he was like WHOAAAA nice introduction. NOT. But he’s a pretty damn fast learner, because halfway through the convo he totally caught on and was like, “ok Sal, so what you’re saying is that basically, even if Amenah is wrong, she’s right and I’m actually the one in the wrong” and I said, GOOD JOB! *pats head*
It’s kinda bizarre because 2 weeks prior to this whole thing working out for her, I said to afshan how she and I should visit the bay area for a vacation or something. it’s funny I’ve had some weird obsession with that area and NOW I totally have an excuse to visit.
Soooo, a wedding means we need to have a bridal shower. It’s gonna be funny/cool. Amenah is arab…but she wants a bridal shower with an INDIAN theme. How interesting is that? Basically I’m thinking of just having a mini Mehendi/Henna bridal shower for her. AGAIN planning is key. Everybody needs to be in the same city at the right time. Aaahhhh
Because then the wedding is in a totally different city. And people have school and work and stuff. Insha’Allah khair. It’ll be a reunion of the original crew of four, one of whom we lost touch with for a couple years because she was moving around the world. She’s finally married and settled in Germany now temporarily and will hopefully make it back for the wedding.
Speaking of which I CANT WAIT TO GO TO MY FIRST ARAB WEDDING AND BE A BRIDESMAID yayyyyyyyy.
I feel like a teenybopper.
…
lately Sun and all of us (my other crew of girls) have been talking more as well. It’s nice because for a while only a few of us would talk to each other randomly. Lots has changed but is still the same. Does that even make sense?
My time in Atlanta was nice – I realized I never wrote about it. Saw a ton of family after forever. Lots of hugs. One of my dads brothers I saw after forever and a half. He’s so coollllllllllllll. I heart my uncles.
Everyones got all these kids now haha. Two of my cousins (brothers) are each expecting their firstborns. And another one of my girl cousins is expecting her second child. mashaAllah.
Andddd, I’m still waiting for a confirmation on Minas wedding date this December cuz that’s another bridal shower I need to plan!!
I’m on the phone while typing. Might explain why the writing kinda sucks for this post. They’re talking about how T-Bhai went to a wedding in Michigan where the groom arrived on a decked out horse. How old school is that haha. The only way a horse would be part of my wedding if we could possibly ride away in a carriage at the end.
So anyways we had a dawat this weekend and this super cool aunty brought me pink roses from her very own garden. I was extra overjoyed about that. I mean, when was the last time someone brought me flowers from their very OWN garden …like NEVER. Anyone can get flowers from the store or florist. *Sigh*
The petals are slowly falling off on my dresser. It’s sad but I let them gather cuz they smell so good. I love dried up flower petals.
Aaaas for my own life, it’s pretty uneventful so I don’t think I need to talk about it much. I’m living voraciously through all my friends. It’s nice : - )
For one thing, 165 days till Baby Niecphew makes his/her way into this world, insha’Allah. And no, we still haven’t found out the gender. I just can’t wait. I want to be able to buy blue or pink things already, helloooo. Yellow is not my absolute favorite. Yellow is like the sell out baby color. Like, you just don’t care or something. Like, hi, I dress my newborn in yellow cuz we never cared to find out the gender during the pregnancy. Ok, I’m such a hater. I think a lot of my friends reading this didn’t wanna find out the gender. SORRY GUYS I HEART YOU ALL!
Soooo yeah. We need to have a baby shower. For friends. Seeing as the baby will probably have a shower in Chicago with majority family from his/her dads side. All the cool people live in Atlanta. Or at least, we’re all Atlanta based. Everyones moved away. Makes things so much much much more harder to plan. Aaaah.
Amenah got engaged so she’s technically become one of us now. Or will be soon. ATLANTA BASED crew. She’s moving alllllllll the way to the bay area..yes as in california. That’s kind of far, like 4 hours behind. Saddening. But it’s okay because…well, I don’t knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww HOW ABOUT SHE FOUND THIS COOL GUY WHO’S JUST LIKE HER MASHA’ALLAH. Like who would’ve thought. It’s amazing. I’m really happy for her. I sound like a cheeseball I think. Whatever. I talked to him and this is the first thing I said, “hi, if you hurt my friend, we will all kick you” and he was like WHOAAAA nice introduction. NOT. But he’s a pretty damn fast learner, because halfway through the convo he totally caught on and was like, “ok Sal, so what you’re saying is that basically, even if Amenah is wrong, she’s right and I’m actually the one in the wrong” and I said, GOOD JOB! *pats head*
It’s kinda bizarre because 2 weeks prior to this whole thing working out for her, I said to afshan how she and I should visit the bay area for a vacation or something. it’s funny I’ve had some weird obsession with that area and NOW I totally have an excuse to visit.
Soooo, a wedding means we need to have a bridal shower. It’s gonna be funny/cool. Amenah is arab…but she wants a bridal shower with an INDIAN theme. How interesting is that? Basically I’m thinking of just having a mini Mehendi/Henna bridal shower for her. AGAIN planning is key. Everybody needs to be in the same city at the right time. Aaahhhh
Because then the wedding is in a totally different city. And people have school and work and stuff. Insha’Allah khair. It’ll be a reunion of the original crew of four, one of whom we lost touch with for a couple years because she was moving around the world. She’s finally married and settled in Germany now temporarily and will hopefully make it back for the wedding.
Speaking of which I CANT WAIT TO GO TO MY FIRST ARAB WEDDING AND BE A BRIDESMAID yayyyyyyyy.
I feel like a teenybopper.
…
lately Sun and all of us (my other crew of girls) have been talking more as well. It’s nice because for a while only a few of us would talk to each other randomly. Lots has changed but is still the same. Does that even make sense?
My time in Atlanta was nice – I realized I never wrote about it. Saw a ton of family after forever. Lots of hugs. One of my dads brothers I saw after forever and a half. He’s so coollllllllllllll. I heart my uncles.
Everyones got all these kids now haha. Two of my cousins (brothers) are each expecting their firstborns. And another one of my girl cousins is expecting her second child. mashaAllah.
Andddd, I’m still waiting for a confirmation on Minas wedding date this December cuz that’s another bridal shower I need to plan!!
I’m on the phone while typing. Might explain why the writing kinda sucks for this post. They’re talking about how T-Bhai went to a wedding in Michigan where the groom arrived on a decked out horse. How old school is that haha. The only way a horse would be part of my wedding if we could possibly ride away in a carriage at the end.
So anyways we had a dawat this weekend and this super cool aunty brought me pink roses from her very own garden. I was extra overjoyed about that. I mean, when was the last time someone brought me flowers from their very OWN garden …like NEVER. Anyone can get flowers from the store or florist. *Sigh*
The petals are slowly falling off on my dresser. It’s sad but I let them gather cuz they smell so good. I love dried up flower petals.
Aaaas for my own life, it’s pretty uneventful so I don’t think I need to talk about it much. I’m living voraciously through all my friends. It’s nice : - )
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